There was nothing wrong with Noah Graham’s first grade photo.
At least not to Noah.
But there, on the lower right corner of the large envelope holding the picture, was a sticky note.
“We will be doing retakes!”
It was from Noah’s mom.
Noah liked his school picture. His smile was wide, a gummy gap of missing teeth — three up top, two down below. His wheat blonde hair fell straight, not spiky, just like he liked it. He leaned forward, slightly, smiling good like his mom told him to.
But the retakes mattered to Noah’s mom, and so they mattered to Noah, too.
And that’s why, on Coleman Elementary School’s picture retake day, he woke up to her good morning song, took a shower, sat still as she dried his hair, put on his new red shirt, new jeans, new shoes and stood in line at the library, holding a crinkling envelope with wallet-sized, 5-by-7 and 8-by-10 photos that he really liked but his mom really didn’t because of one little thing.
Don’t worry, though, it’s not serious.
Or permanent.
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Six years ago, Noah’s mom was not yet Noah’s mom.
She was 31, married, just starting a new job. She loved ski trips to Breckenridge and going out on the weekends — and she didn’t want to have kids.
But then, Aleesa Waters-Graham found out she was five months pregnant. She didn’t change her mind about the mom thing — until she held Noah.
He was a warm, round little sumo wrestler of a boy with dark hair and tiny eyes. Noah’s mom knew she was responsible for him, felt she’d been entrusted to care for him.
She and Noah’s dad divorced when he was 4 months old, and Noah’s mom kept right on loving being Noah’s mom. Her son was the one who hugged the little boy who got expelled from school, the kid who drew knights and castles to put on his grandma’s grave, who wanted to grow up to be Dumpster Man, soaring high around the planet picking up all the trash that people threw out where they shouldn’t until the earth was all clean.
He’s the one who called out to his mom from his room every afternoon.
”Maa-aam?”
”Yeah?”
”I love you.”
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In late August, Noah and his mom moved to a new house closer to his school so she could hurry home every afternoon, put on her tennis shoes, walk up the hill and meet her little boy just as he was crossing the road.
On the morning of school pictures, boxes from the move still filled the house. And that’s when Noah’s mom got a surprise.
She woke Noah with her usual morning song. Then, Noah took off his nightshirt.
Noah’s mom panicked.
Frantically, she searched for the rubbing alcohol.
She couldn’t find it.
So Noah went off to school, his hair straight, not spiky, ready to smile good, and Noah’s mom prayed the photographer would take a good photo anyway.
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Noah glanced down at the envelope holding his school photo as the line grew shorter and he worked his way closer to the gray background and flashing lights in the library on picture retake day.
PTA volunteer Debbie Cotter came and took a peek at the picture.
“Good photo,” she said.
“It’s not.”
Noah’s mom didn’t like them, he told her.
“Do you know why?”
“Why?” she asked.
“Because of this.”
Noah took the photo out.
He held it up.
He waited.
“Oh,” she said, laughing, “you have tattoos on your arms.”
Yes, he had tattoos on his arms.
Three crept across the right arm, two on the left. He’d gotten them at his step-brother’s wedding and put them all on at once, loving every fake-inked inch. There was a dragon, a little circle with some writing, Jack Sparrow with the skull and crossbones, another dragon and some Chinese writing.
And Noah’s mom was horrified because they made the little guy who loved coloring and jumping on his bed, who hated wearing socks and played army guy games look, well, a little rough for a 6-year-old.
But on picture retake day, no tattoos.
Noah stepped into the area where his new photo would be taken and handed the photographer the photos he loved.
“Oh,” Molly Fox said, “lots of tattoos.”
“I had them on one arm ...” Noah said, and then drew a finger down the other.
Seated, he leaned forward just a little.
“OK, ready buddy?” the photographer asked him.
Noah smiled good.
The camera flashed.
It would take three weeks before Noah could bring home his new photos. He hoped his mom would be happy.
And he knew right where one of them would go — on the fridge, by the door.
“Me and my mom can just look at it,” Noah said, “then we can go.”
Noah and his mom have one more photo they can look at, too.
It’s on their computer, scanned in the night before picture retake day.
It’s the original, the one with the tattoos.
Noah’s mom saved it for him.
She knew it mattered to Noah, and so it mattered to her, too.